as part of my integration back in to korean society, after 12 years of being in australia, i read newspapers a lot. and a pattern i notice is that a lot of korean people likes suiciding. suiciding like it was a fad that is going out. its so common that it shouldnt even be news.

but this week, some korean dude killed himself and left a letter, addressed to parents and police, which points out things that could be improved to prevent bullying. things like make sure the cctv(everyone watches your every move in korea aparently) in the schools have no dead zones and make sure they are high quality enough to identify bullies. and this act has made highlights and is on news. (of course, he misses the point and forgets to mention that bullying happens cos everyone in korea are fucking rude and are basically assholes when they think no one is looking)

that is all good and all. but i dont understand why if he knew what to exactly say and what were the exact problems, why didnt he just say that to the school involved while he was alive? but of course, i do understand that without his death and the letter, this issue would have not got the attention it sort out for. which makes him a matyr i suppose. but did he realise he was going to be a matyr? is that why he wrote this letter to address his family AND the police? and if the problem is as extensive as he says it is, wouldnt he have realised his matyrdom would be forgotten in a matter of a week or two? if he had the mind to become a matyr, why didnt he just stay alive and run a protest campaign or something? wouldnt that been more effective?

thats another thing. what does dying achieve? i mean. i am neither ashamed nor proud(i never understood that...how do you feel proud about being a victim of something. you say you are proud to have endured and conquered bullying. and yet you keep on victimising yourself by identifying yourself as a victim. so you clearly havent conquered it.) to say i have been bullied. sort of. and suicide wasnt one of the options i had in mind. it goes from ignoring then negotiating/bargaining, acceptance or violence. when you get frustrated at something, you dont just kill yourself(unless its in games. then it's hilarious if you kill yourself). you lash out, kick your dog(only an example. if you really do kick your dog, i hope you catch the plague), tear out your hair, swear at inanimate objects, swear at your hand. all acts of violence.

when people say violence is the last resort, that is a blatant lie. DYING obviously is the last resort. how can anything be more last than dying. so why dont these thousands of korean kids who kill themselves, every year, resort to violence? why do they choose to kill themselves first even before trying violence? why dont they focus all that above mentioned frustration and anger on the cause of their grief? may that be anger fueling your campaign against that cause or anger fueling your violence on that cause of grief.

government should stop saying stupid slogans like "bullying builds character" or "just ignore bullies" or even attempt dumb things using propaganda/public image in an effort to steer the people to be nicer(korea does so much of this bullshit). stop all that garbage. they should follow the Punisher's(the only comic hero i know of who doesnt have dumbass recurring arch-nemesis cos he does the smart thing and just kills all his enemies) example and just make the following slogan

"dont kill yourself. kill your bully"